September 12th, 2006

Brown-eyed Stare

Monday Update

What is life? It is the flash of a firefly in the night.
It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime.
It is the little shadow which runs across the
grass and loses itself in the sunset...

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Brown-eyed Stare

Absurd little things make me smile

Jim says things that make me smile. Here's a few things he's said
recently that had me giggling (they may not be amusing to all, but I
found them absurdly funny). (and yes, our conversation do tend to run
into the absurd at times):

"There is no such thing as a 'clean' octopus."

"Look, I'm all out of hedgehogs - can I send you a moose instead? He's
a rather svelte, muscular moose - he won't take up much room, and will
look good in any dark corner you may have."

"No.... I would not recommend trying to fold a moose."
Brown-eyed Stare

PS: My words are broken.

Forgive me; my words are broken today.

I know I posted earlier, but I'm feeling rather inarticulate right now.
After having read other people's stuff this morning (yes, a bit, before
my phone crapped out on memory) -- I feel inept and inadequate - like
the words and the language are no longer mine - not so much that English
itself is feeble, but that I am feeble to use it. It feels like I'm
faking it -- limping along, dilettante, in a tongue that is not mine
(and that's weird, because I don't usually feel that way in Spanish or
Polish... but now I feel it quite keenly, in English).

Whether I really am articulate or not is irrelevant - it's how I feel
right now. Ick. I do not have the words to say what I want to say -
and it's not the words who're at fault; it's me. It's times like these
that I wish I could play an instrument, so I could play what I want to
say. Somehow, I think a violin or piano could say what I want so much
better than any spoken words right now.

I want to just sit and watch the words today, and play or paint what I
want to express, without words.

And I want to stand mute and surf, and just read what others say.
*sigh* Perhaps sometime soon, I will.