September 13th, 2006

Brown-eyed Stare

Potentially Happy News (courtesy of my sweet roommie)

I'm not gonna get my hopes up *too high* like I did before - but
hopefully this Sunday, we will have a cable connection installed at our
house. So we should then have cable tv and cable internet connection -
hopefully. *crosses fingers*

L, A & I talked briefly the other night, and L was really good at
letting A know that she and I both REALLY WANT cable, and that A CANNOT
be stuck with the bill if it's in someone else's name. She also was
clear to A that her house would be respected, and there wouldn't be tons
of holes drilled, and lots of wires all over the place (which seemed to
be her main beef this time around). And (mirabile visu!), A agreed to
it -- especially when she realized she could also use the wireless
high-speed connection (with the correct card for her laptop). So, as of
Sunday afternoon (hopefully), we should have internet at home *crosses
fingers*. Will keep you all posted as to status, etc.

L was amazing throughout the conversation.... wow. I have things to
learn here... things I used to know but apparently have forgotten. L
got her point across (and *well*) -- and was persuasive in the process.
For me, it's hard not to get my hackles up (and then let *that* dictate
the conversation, which is nearly always a disaster). I feel like, to
be smooth and persuasive, I'd need to brown-nose, and there's a part of
me that hates that. But...when L does it, it's not brown-nosing at all
(I watched and listened) -- it's truthful and persuasive and respectful.
I could do that -- and still feel like I've maintained my integrity, and
been hoenst with myself (which, before, has been a huge sticking point
for me). I think I need to sit at her feet and watch for a while, when
it comes to dealing with our housemate. She's *GOOD.*

This is an excellent thing for me - I've been languishing without access
to the internet (except via phone, or an hour once in a while at the
library). I miss being able to read and research whatever I want,
without an hour's time limit. And I miss being able to chat with people,
and read/respond to LJs. I really miss feeling connected in that way.
Now, to figure out what my PC needs to talk to a wireless connection,
and how to get/install said device. It's a challenge I'm more than
willing to take on.
Brown-eyed Stare

PS: Good Stuff

"When we are no longer able to change a situation - we are challenged to
change ourselves."
--Viktor Frankl, psychologist and Nazi holocaust survivor

Here's another excerpt from an email mailing I got earlier this morning.
I liked it a lot, and wanted to share it:

Mother Teresa used to say, "None of us can do great things, we can only
do a small thing with great love every day". There is so much Truth in
that statement. Yet Mother Teresa and her Missionaries of Charity took
their dedicated work of love, courage and determination for the most
marginalized, into nearly every corner of the world. A small thing done
with great love every day works miracles.
It helps a lot if you have a vision, as Mother Teresa had, to focus and
direct your daily small gift of love, and that vision can grow as your
love grows. However it is a mistake to use your imagination too much by
devising grand schemes in your mind which are out of sync with where you
are here and now. It is easy to overuse your mind causing loss of energy
and stress. Your project will flourish if you simply focus on
accomplishing your existing step, while remaining open to new
possibilities for growth.
Remember also that the success you seek is to become a living example of
love in action. In essence success is about an inner victory where the
self is transformed into the Self. Through this transformation the ego
burns to ash and your true humanity shines forth.
Realize also that you do not need to achieve great things outwardly to
attain this inner transformation. Each of us is born into a unique set
of circumstances with our own skills, resources, duties and attributes.
Some people may have onerous duties that are a priority - like caring
for disabled parents. Still others may be living with restrictions and
disabilities of their own which limit the type and ways in which they
can offer themselves to the world. Society needs many people who can do
simple work and fulfill their duties to their family and others with
However we can all achieve that inner victory - whatever our
circumstances, or apparent handicaps. And when, with the wisdom that
comes with our approaching demise, we judge ourselves for the
contribution we have made, we will not ask ourselves how much we have
achieved, but rather we will ask ourselves - what was the purity of our
intention and the quality of our love?
So I would say to you, continue to pursue success, but let it be inner
success as your first priority - choosing those activities that nurture
the blossoming of your Love and the opening of your Heart. Choose areas
of work and service to society that facilitate this inner blossoming and
do not be too concerned as to their scale or reach. Instead focus on
expanding your work and the circle of your love one step at a time. If
you do this then gradually you will heal and grow into a happy vibrant
Brown-eyed Stare

(no subject)

"I'm trying to make some sense of it all,
but I can see it makes no sense at all.
Clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right
Here I am,
Stuck in the middle with you."
-- Steeler's Wheel, "Stuck In The Middle"
Brown-eyed Stare

Keith Olbermann

A copy of this was sent to me; if I find out where to credit & link it
(I believe it's on MSNBC's homepage), I definitely will. It's pretty
damn good. Following it is additional material from Olbermann - also
rather interesting.

This hole in the ground (Comment on 9/11)

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