I'm not gonna get my hopes up *too high* like I did before - but hopefully this Sunday, we will have a cable connection installed at our house. So we should then have cable tv and cable internet connection - hopefully. *crosses fingers*
L, A & I talked briefly the other night, and L was really good at letting A know that she and I both REALLY WANT cable, and that A CANNOT be stuck with the bill if it's in someone else's name. She also was clear to A that her house would be respected, and there wouldn't be tons of holes drilled, and lots of wires all over the place (which seemed to be her main beef this time around). And (mirabile visu!), A agreed to it -- especially when she realized she could also use the wireless high-speed connection (with the correct card for her laptop). So, as of Sunday afternoon (hopefully), we should have internet at home *crosses fingers*. Will keep you all posted as to status, etc.
L was amazing throughout the conversation.... wow. I have things to learn here... things I used to know but apparently have forgotten. L got her point across (and *well*) -- and was persuasive in the process. For me, it's hard not to get my hackles up (and then let *that* dictate the conversation, which is nearly always a disaster). I feel like, to be smooth and persuasive, I'd need to brown-nose, and there's a part of me that hates that. But...when L does it, it's not brown-nosing at all (I watched and listened) -- it's truthful and persuasive and respectful. I could do that -- and still feel like I've maintained my integrity, and been hoenst with myself (which, before, has been a huge sticking point for me). I think I need to sit at her feet and watch for a while, when it comes to dealing with our housemate. She's *GOOD.*
This is an excellent thing for me - I've been languishing without access to the internet (except via phone, or an hour once in a while at the library). I miss being able to read and research whatever I want, without an hour's time limit. And I miss being able to chat with people, and read/respond to LJs. I really miss feeling connected in that way. Now, to figure out what my PC needs to talk to a wireless connection, and how to get/install said device. It's a challenge I'm more than willing to take on.
"When we are no longer able to change a situation - we are challenged to change ourselves." --Viktor Frankl, psychologist and Nazi holocaust survivor
Here's another excerpt from an email mailing I got earlier this morning. I liked it a lot, and wanted to share it:
Mother Teresa used to say, "None of us can do great things, we can only do a small thing with great love every day". There is so much Truth in that statement. Yet Mother Teresa and her Missionaries of Charity took their dedicated work of love, courage and determination for the most marginalized, into nearly every corner of the world. A small thing done with great love every day works miracles. It helps a lot if you have a vision, as Mother Teresa had, to focus and direct your daily small gift of love, and that vision can grow as your love grows. However it is a mistake to use your imagination too much by devising grand schemes in your mind which are out of sync with where you are here and now. It is easy to overuse your mind causing loss of energy and stress. Your project will flourish if you simply focus on accomplishing your existing step, while remaining open to new possibilities for growth. Remember also that the success you seek is to become a living example of love in action. In essence success is about an inner victory where the self is transformed into the Self. Through this transformation the ego burns to ash and your true humanity shines forth. Realize also that you do not need to achieve great things outwardly to attain this inner transformation. Each of us is born into a unique set of circumstances with our own skills, resources, duties and attributes. Some people may have onerous duties that are a priority - like caring for disabled parents. Still others may be living with restrictions and disabilities of their own which limit the type and ways in which they can offer themselves to the world. Society needs many people who can do simple work and fulfill their duties to their family and others with love. However we can all achieve that inner victory - whatever our circumstances, or apparent handicaps. And when, with the wisdom that comes with our approaching demise, we judge ourselves for the contribution we have made, we will not ask ourselves how much we have achieved, but rather we will ask ourselves - what was the purity of our intention and the quality of our love? So I would say to you, continue to pursue success, but let it be inner success as your first priority - choosing those activities that nurture the blossoming of your Love and the opening of your Heart. Choose areas of work and service to society that facilitate this inner blossoming and do not be too concerned as to their scale or reach. Instead focus on expanding your work and the circle of your love one step at a time. If you do this then gradually you will heal and grow into a happy vibrant person.
"I'm trying to make some sense of it all, but I can see it makes no sense at all. Clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right Here I am, Stuck in the middle with you." -- Steeler's Wheel, "Stuck In The Middle"
A copy of this was sent to me; if I find out where to credit & link it (I believe it's on MSNBC's homepage), I definitely will. It's pretty damn good. Following it is additional material from Olbermann - also rather interesting.