September 14th, 2006

Brown-eyed Stare



Last night, my landlord/housemate A started waffling (again!) on the
hows/whys/when of having cable installed. It will not be there on
Sunday, after all. *Perhaps* it will be installed some time next week.


I NEED internet access. It's no longer a strong want. With all the
other stressors in my life, I need to be able to escape in safe, healthy
ways, and wandering around out on the 'net is one that seems to work
well at settling my overactive brain, without any external chemical
stimulus needed. I NEED IT. Squinting at a 1"x1 1/2" screen to try and
read LJ just isn't cutting it anymore - no matter how much I love my
phone, it doesn't help when I want to respond to a comment. And have I
mentioned that I'd really like to be able to take care of my banking and
bill paying, too? Yep - done online. Having misplaced the current
(non-electronic) novel I'm reading doesn't help the situation much,

And having cable tv to dunk my head in when I get home would be a nice
perk, as well. At least a clear picture while I watch my Nature shows
on PBS would be a welcome addition.

So, I will pray to whatever gods may be listening that this gets
settled.... SOON. Meanwhile I'll be over in the corner, gnawing my
right arm off.


Makes me wonder what we did before these goram boxes were kept in our
houses and on our desks..... I don't think my stomach can take that much

Brown-eyed Stare

On my can of SOBE No Fear....

Okay, so my head is pounding a little less now... I've finally had some
caffeine. Yes, I know. I'm addicted again, and need to wean myself off
it. I know, I know - the sledgehammer in my occipital lobe is telling
me that, loud and clear.

But on the can of diet SOBE No Fear (no sugar energy drink) I'm downing
right now, there's a funny little sentence. It made me chuckle, and
right now, that's a very valuable thing.

"We didn't take the sugar out, it got scared and ran away." (This is
on a can of "No Fear")

*snort* Some days, it's the stupid little things that help the most.
For me, it's blatant absurdities that cause me to remember my own
perspective. This was a good one.

"Just remember this, my girl: when you look up in the sky
You can see the stars and still not see the light."

Well, I know it wasn't you who held me down
Heaven knows it wasn't you who set me free.
So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains,
And we never even know we have the key."

-- REO Speedwagon, "Already Gone"