I realized earlier this morning that, while I do still Tweet some (same name there as here -- lucky me for getting in early), when I tweaked my LJ so that it did not double-post my Tweets over at FaceBook, it also stopped posting my Tweets here. Which means a LOT of 'radio silence' for me here at LJ, apparently.
Which may well be for the good -- I think that most of my wrassles with various demons lately are not fit for human consumption. :-P Suffice it to say that I'm still dealing with some things that I thought were done, as well as some heretofore unknown issues with my (4 years past) cancer surgery. My body has begun changing in uncomfortable (and annoying) ways, and I have been worried and scared, because I know what the result is, and I DO NOT want to deal with that. EVER. But I may not have much of a choice -- what I have happening is not very reversable.
So, I've had a LOT (recently) of dealing with the anger and depression, and the nasties that haunt me along with them -- as well as learning how to deal differently with my migraines (which got worse with the stress). Add to that the wacky job stuff (all of us having to re-apply for our jobs, and start over as new employees of a different organization, with zero senority and 6 months of probation) - and it's been a bumpy ride. And yes, I've been in close contact with my psych, and am planning to talk with a counselor soon (regularly) about it all, but it's not been pretty. And I haven't felt comfortable enough to put it here -- locked or not.
Long and short? I have not left LJ, and will try to come back and post a bit more, since I know now that not even my Tweets are making it here. But you can also find me at Twitter, or Facebook, if you want -- as well. And if you want to email me, you can write directly to my phone, at sapphireloba at gmail dot com.
More anon -- must go have some lunch.
**Hugs and good wishes to all**